今年2月、糖尿病が悪化した母が、左足の切断手術を受けた。

コロナ禍で面会謝絶だったから、ガラス越しで手を振って、
術後の経過は病院からの電話連絡のみ、ずっと面会できなかった。

脳梗塞で右半身が不自由になり、言葉もほとんど話せない。
それでも「家に帰りたい」とナースに訴えているのだと。

「テレビ電話面会」の予約をずっと待って、半年ぶりに再会した。
水頭症で歩けない父を車椅子に乗せて、たった10分の逢瀬。

言葉の出ない母を、父が画面越しに怒鳴る。
もうずっと、そんな夫婦の姿を見てきた。
口は悪い父だけれど、母のことを想う気持ちが痛いほど伝わってくる。

人生の最終章を、どんな風に過ごすべきか。
私はずっと、心の涙が止まらない。

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In last February, my mother, whose diabetes had worsened, had surgery to amputate her left leg.

She was out of visitation because of the COVID-19 cluster, so I waved to her through the glass before the surgery.
The only post-operative progress was a phone call from the hospital, and we couldn't visit her for a long time.

The stroke had left the right side of her body disabled and she can hardly speak.
Even so, I had heard she still asked to the nurse that she wanted to go home.

We waited a long time for a videoconference appointment and saw her again for the first time in six months.
I had only a 10-minute meeting taking my father, who cannot walk due to hydrocephalus, in his wheelchair.

My father yelled at my mother, who was unable to speak, through the screen.
I have been watching my parents for a long time.
My father is a man of bad words, but his love for my mother is painfully apparent.

I wonder how I should spend the last chapter of my life.
I can't stop crying inside for a long time.